Sentimental Love Story

Din hv much feelings of taking pics lately...life recently was kinda too mechanic...my house iz getting quiet than ever b4...the atmosphere rly got wierd....a lot of indescribable feelings in my mind....watched a series recommended by apple....BUT one certain thing i know iz ....my subconscious will automatically put hea yun on my mind every nite...i rly wonder wad she is so attractive to me..but i just cant stop~!~!same feeling goes like when a bull sees red n it will rush onto it....but so far...our relationships can just stand on ' Good Friends '....topic revolving us surely related to studies.......i guess i did made some hints on her.....but i rly know that...i m not worth to be loved...cos i m too weak....always depending on everybody's help.....

Even though we sit together on every tutorials..even if i always acted as her tutor...even if i always wish her luck b4 exams...even if i didn't get any responses from her......well....i feel satisfied ald...probably is bcos i dun wanna make my fairy tale turn into a nightmare....that goes to Gary....who told me that he was totally disappointed of Hea Yun...cos she is avoiding him...well..i do rly sure that he likes her...but i guess he oso knew that i like her...so as hea yun...well...I have got a question for gals.....What will u think of the guy if the guy who always encourage u on studies n exams....try his best to help u on studies...concern of ur living condition when the weather turned bad...trying to adapt ur interest....would u ask urself if the guy iz interested on urself or not??

well...frankly speaking, if i were the gal, i wun like the boy....cos he din make me like being chased...he acts more like erm...brother i think....i m quite stupid rite now....cos if i wanna know the answer, i shuld only ask her....the fastest way to know the answer...well...actually i do know the answer after all...it took time to get her....however, i was rly satisfied on this current condition, cos lately she was more relying on me...

Accounting tutorial on Wednesday, we had a mid-term exam..i purposely picked earlier time to go to skool, cos i was suppose to revise it more, however, she smsed me n i told her that i was coming...just 6 minutes later, she phoned me ald...i wasnt at skool yet...but she was quite anxious i think...i dunno..when i arrived the classroom...it was only she....after that...i acted as a tutor again...well...actually i ald covered nearly all for the Accounting...then...b4 the exam starts...the tutor has to rearrange the chairs...after that...i, hea yun and my other fd went into a embarrassing condition....cos my fd wans me to help him but then there are only 2 seats left on the end row...cos i oso nid to help hea yun...then i was doubting where to sit...my fd was urging me to sit bside him...then hea yun suddenly grabbed my arm to pull me down to the seat bside her....well...i m not a ninja...cant duplicate myself...so i ended up ignoring them two...letting them sit the last row...i rly dunno how would they feel that time..i guess hea yun would feel that i m weak n not worthed to be loved....puhaha~!~!

I rly feel that Gary iz oso angry wif me..probably bcos i worked well wif hea yun...he told me that hea yun never replies him ever since that day....n for today's finance tutorial, hea yun purposely asked me to switch seat wif her...cos she usually sits on my left, but the nxt 2 seat was Gary (last tutorial Gary sat on her left), she used me as her wall to block Gary....n then as usual, Finance tutorial iz all about doing exercises...n as usual, i acted as her tutor..automatically, it was like being a tutor of she had bcame a part of my duty ald....n thankz to my teaching (i dunno if it rly is), her finance had improved greatly, the pace had gone faster n it is error free....then she kept on telling me that i can go first cos i finished earlier...of cos i din...but i recalled Gary's case, so i din follow her even when she left the room....n Gary was acting very cool to me....oh god..i had become his enemy i guess...i dunno if i hate him or not...but apple sed she felt i hate him...RLY...i m not sure if I'm~!~!!

after that, econ lecture, i asked her if i can sit bside her...it was odd rite???i dunno...i felt like if i dun ask her, she might felt unconfortable..but after i ask her, i felt very awkward...y i nid to ask her????Thank her anyways...she consoled me on the individual assignment..cos i was rly down on it...i tried my best n get only credit, i do expect it to achieve distinction....but my report wasnt rly gud after all....cos i knew it....just bcos i tried my best, i hoped it had distinction...but turned out a disappointing result....well...our relationship seemed like cannot reach more further ald....

As i asked my lurve consultants....some told me not to give too much hope, some said just give her sometime......GodDamn.....i m just stuck on these stuffs..........cos i rly dunno how she feel towards me.........but another certain thing was....Mel was correct....I m just a Master of Crapping..If i were u guys....i will say....this person's blog are all very long n stinks....all bout hea yun n no other fresh stuffs....i just get annoyed if the person keeps on asking me to read his/her blog...cos it never related to me

God.....the most amazing miracle occured in my life was...i feel there are 2 souls in my body but i was still remain normal n din get crazy......(perhaps i was crazy ald....cos a lunatic never knows that they had gone insane ald...)

P.S. : plz ignore this post, cos i was just being pessimistic today~!~!~!~!~! (i bet u guys will listen to me...thank u)