Hope Or Disappointment????

It has been a long time i haven't updated my blog.....well..not only me then....others also rarely update theirs as well......how shuld i say.....is it bcos we dun hv much things to write or just bcos we are either lazy or busy????well..for my case it is the second one....rly i have bunches of shits to burst out

well...exam has finished already........n i have to work work n work on holidays....all midnite shifts><... i guess my results in this term will be gud.....cos i only miss out 3 out of 50 marks before the exam.so i have 47 marks on hand...i din lose any marks on finance before the exam so it gets me 40 out of 40....while as Management even tho i already pass that subject but i still stayed up all nite to memorize those fricking theories...i wun expect too much on management anyways....while for econ....i cant expect too high on it...a credit is satisfied for me....it wud be a surprise if i score a distinction on it....but frankly speaking....my aim for this term was scoring all distinctions....i had already confirmed one...which is report writing...78 (Distinction)...hehe...i hope i can show off my results again here....but mostly the more hope i put...the larger i will get disappointed....just same as Hea Yun stuffs

I remembered that i said i wun write Hea Yun anymore....yet the blog was named after her....so i guess i shuld write her all the time....One word.....she seemed to be...dunno how to face me....omg...thankz to my shanghai fd.....he keep on telling her that i like her n say this n that....in fact she ald knew it b4 he said that to her...b4 it was ok....just after that incident.....there was a minor change between me n she....we both know that but din wan to touch it...cos wad happen was....there was a korean guy who is using her in order to do revision....hea yun has a textbook....n then ended up some ppl thought they were a couple.....in fact hea yun rly hate that guy...cos that guy said she is ugly n not qualified to be his gf.....n then insulting her all the time....nearly every korean connection at our campus hates him......the last time they scolding each other was when they are in library....in front of me....it is unlucky that i cant understand korean...otherwise i will rly beat him up like a pig....after that...i texted hea yun n said i shuld defend for her.....sth like that.....

n now she cant even dare to look on my face..sth like that....

Robotic Vs. Humanic Life

Feel lazy to update the blog lately....well....a part of it is bcos of my packed life....or the other stuffs shuld be.....nth to say

I barely get a time to rest for a week...cos i started to work in a pie shop....n then last week i hv 3 consecutive overnite shifts..n all my shifts starts from 11pm to 4am..so starting from last wednesday...my sleeping time is very limited...

Wednesday wake up on 11am.....din sleep until Thursday 6pm..but only slept an hour slept again on Friday 6am n then have to wake up on 10 for my last tutorial class n lecture after that started my long long study week....i get a pretty gud sleep on that nite....from 2am to 10am.....n then being a tutor for whole day...wif my all friends and Hea Yun as well......it was on Saturday....

n then Sunday...bloody day....wake up at 11am....tutor again....Finance final exam was on Monday...n then taught my fds till 5am....slept at my campus for an hour...n then i went back home to have a gud sleep....but ended up late for my final exam...i late for half an hour....but luckily i m god on finance (thatz wad my friends all said)...i still finished early...cos some of my fds cant finish it...well i guess i m showing off myself ald....what the heck

after the exam.....i directly rushed to campus to continue my second session...revision for Economics.....I started on 4pm....well...All of my fds including Hea Yun was there as well.....n then we stayed up whole nite again.....but poor Hea Yun...her korean fds left her alone after 1am....n she was rly great....she can stay up till 5am n go back home....i was rly hoping that i can send her back home....but impossible though..haha....i arrived home at 8am...slept for around 4 hours....n i hv to wake up for the exam...well...quite disappointed for today's exam....cos i ald know i lost heaps of marks...wadeva...have to focus on nxt quest...Accounting + Management n i still have to work on friday n saturday T_T...but a gud thing was...

i met n teach heaps of hot chicks this week

i was rly feeling weird....love stuffs again...hehe....i mean i rly learn a lot thru this experience....well...of cos wif many ppl's help....n even she even took the credit of this blog's name....my only solution iz.....treat her same as usual...i guess she was the same...pretending nth happen at all....well...still we 2 are very gud fds.....i rly cant imagine that i will confess on the time she told me that she has a bf ald in korea.....Life is just.........UNPREDICTABLE

ANYWAYS....FIGHTING..FIGHTING...YEAH^^

CooL CooL CooL

Quite many stuffs happened....But aLL are Gud News

well....as everybody who read this blog knows.....Hea Yun has a BF....n he is now in Korea....Domestic Partnership.....well....me n she has turned to mhmm......probably very very gud fds......well...quite complicated tho.....i mean my inner feelings....it is was like......erm....everything changes very fast....until last week...i was still in crush of her.....turn turned out to be ' can tell wadeva stuffs' type fd....

Just after the job interview....i started my first job shift in my life.....it was enjoyable...n two nites ago was my second shift...n also my permanent working shift since the first shift i was put in different place.....that place was totally awesome......a beautiful beach in front of it....tourist areas wif pubs......well....that also means i may encounter more issues there...

Yesterday was Bowie's Bday party....she invited me and her fds to karaoke box....10++ ppl gather in one room n then drinking n singing.....thatz fabulous.....but ended up no voice this
morning......trust me....my singing has improved already.....still looking forward we can sing someday^^

Today i just went to study with hea yun.....n then have a lunch (dim sum)...it was her first time she had dim sum in her life.....well.....quite happy tho..hehe....chat loadz of stuffs n i urged her to introduce some gals for me..hehe....of cos korean gals..i feel it is the time to colour my life already^v^..i dunno......i feel that many korean gals are attractive....anyways...thatz wad i asked her.....n she promised me too...hehe...luckily i know her stuffs earlier..otherwise ended up disappointed more^^

N then goes to another issue...i m very sry to everybody that i cannot come....but i promise i will send stuffs to u all....so be look forward on it^^


P.S. : Please forgive me that i cannot include too many ppl for the presents...due to my lack of money

My frame of mind is now in fully released stage....n i m looking forward to facing new relationships..hehe

New Era~!

After all, she has a boy friend already....she admitted it to me without my confession~!~!so in other words, she doesnt know that i like her.......i was shocked that time.....but just only a minute...i returned to a very calm state.....then i told her that i like her.....n telling her that dun be afraid of me(not by words, but just to let her feel).....i probably assumed this situation already....otherwise i will be very very very sad........or is it because i m too sad until i cannot make any normal reactions????

well..in fact, i m not doing too obvious tho........but this is a very great n precious experience to me....like how bebek told me....dun put too much hope.....that rly helped me.......i m not sure if i had ever put any hopes on it.....but i admit i do rly like her.......no matter what.....everything done is done...i once told somebody that there is 80% that i can success....n now turned up i have to find a hole to hide ald.....it is rly a shame on me......cos i guess gals doesn't like being treated as a gambling tool tho...if someone ask me when she has a bf...i will say i dunno...cos i dun wanna ask too much...even tho i rly wanted to know it....mayb thatz a hint that i m rly sad...haha~!~!~!
i shuldnt say sad anyways....the term disappointed might be better.....probably i m expecting better than this kinda result....it is quite complicated tho.....it was like....all the efforts of me are gone (i think i never put efforts on it)...but one of my motive force is gone as well....n of cos....my worries are all gone.....

So...Friends.......thank u very much for supporting me for so long....but the story has ended already...n a happy ending as well...nobody get hurt^^

Please do not say ' dun be sad'...cos i m not sad.....losing her was not everything(in fact i never have her)

Please do not ask any further details about her bf or sth....she has the right of not telling me...n i dun necessary to ask her anyways......it wun help me at all^^

Please laugh at me....cos that make me better...jeer at me....so that i will learn the mistakes n bcome motivative

Please dun feel sorry for me.....my blog name is rollercoastingbear.blogspot.com...therefore it shuld have up n downs....when u r going up....u wun know when u will down...when u r down...it will be a relief...cos u r down already....u wun get down anymore

to Apple....Please congratulate me....my blog will become more interesting already...no more hea yun....

to bebek n mel mel...... Please forgive me....ur tactics are very useful but those are just for single girls....

to Zhi how.....Please laugh at me....cos i made u disappointed

to Joenna....Please be confident on urself....n Please dun hit me after u read this post^^

Anyways.....2/9/07 7.08pm.... first attempt failed^^

Time will decide everything^^

P.S : Please wish me luck...i have job interview tomolo^^