New Era~!

After all, she has a boy friend already....she admitted it to me without my confession~!~!so in other words, she doesnt know that i like her.......i was shocked that time.....but just only a minute...i returned to a very calm state.....then i told her that i like her.....n telling her that dun be afraid of me(not by words, but just to let her feel).....i probably assumed this situation already....otherwise i will be very very very sad........or is it because i m too sad until i cannot make any normal reactions????

well..in fact, i m not doing too obvious tho........but this is a very great n precious experience to me....like how bebek told me....dun put too much hope.....that rly helped me.......i m not sure if i had ever put any hopes on it.....but i admit i do rly like her.......no matter what.....everything done is done...i once told somebody that there is 80% that i can success....n now turned up i have to find a hole to hide ald.....it is rly a shame on me......cos i guess gals doesn't like being treated as a gambling tool tho...if someone ask me when she has a bf...i will say i dunno...cos i dun wanna ask too much...even tho i rly wanted to know it....mayb thatz a hint that i m rly sad...haha~!~!~!
i shuldnt say sad anyways....the term disappointed might be better.....probably i m expecting better than this kinda result....it is quite complicated tho.....it was like....all the efforts of me are gone (i think i never put efforts on it)...but one of my motive force is gone as well....n of cos....my worries are all gone.....

So...Friends.......thank u very much for supporting me for so long....but the story has ended already...n a happy ending as well...nobody get hurt^^

Please do not say ' dun be sad'...cos i m not sad.....losing her was not everything(in fact i never have her)

Please do not ask any further details about her bf or sth....she has the right of not telling me...n i dun necessary to ask her anyways......it wun help me at all^^

Please laugh at me....cos that make me better...jeer at me....so that i will learn the mistakes n bcome motivative

Please dun feel sorry for me.....my blog name is rollercoastingbear.blogspot.com...therefore it shuld have up n downs....when u r going up....u wun know when u will down...when u r down...it will be a relief...cos u r down already....u wun get down anymore

to Apple....Please congratulate me....my blog will become more interesting already...no more hea yun....

to bebek n mel mel...... Please forgive me....ur tactics are very useful but those are just for single girls....

to Zhi how.....Please laugh at me....cos i made u disappointed

to Joenna....Please be confident on urself....n Please dun hit me after u read this post^^

Anyways.....2/9/07 7.08pm.... first attempt failed^^

Time will decide everything^^

P.S : Please wish me luck...i have job interview tomolo^^