UnUsUaL DaY

8/12/07 Saturday, Cloudy

TODAY IS SUNDAY=.=

I had my Accounting Mid Semester Exam on Saturday morning, it was pretty smooth tho..however, somehow, i din realised that i forgot to switch off the alarm clock and it alarmed even tho i switched off the mobile phone...n it was in the formal exam time><.....it shocked everybody in the hall and everybody is laughing....damn....now i m well known throughout the campus= =......

I rushed back home directly by the time i finished the exam, i din wait for my other fds cos i guess i will be the laughing stock if i waited for them.....the exam was very easy, only multiple choices but sorta tricky=.=.....after i reached home, i went to my paradise directly (i slept at 6am in the campus)

last week, Ani actually invited me to the gathering on Saturday organized by her church , i was suppose to work today, but eventually one of my co-worker requested to give my shift to him and i was very glad to do it so....The result was..i went to the gathering....

She was quite upset when i firstly said that i might left early since she asked me why, well....the reason was bowie actually called me to ktv last nite but ended up canceled when i was on the way to the gathering place....i was full of happiness when i m on the way to that place...

I used an hour to find the gathering place cos she din actually told me the exact location but just the area=.=, i was happy enuf when i discovered the place but i was ald late....one of the sad thing was.....i din realised that my camera has no battery><....i keep on phoning her but she din answered any....i guessed she was busy then....

She managed to give me a call later on and we watched quite a portion of the show together.....only me n she.....she was happy enuf to see me and she wore a uniform as well....i guessed she was one of the crew on the gathering...but she said she isn't and wanted to give me a surprise....

Guess what????she is one of the performer on the last show of the gathering....in fact i ald guessed wad wud happen= =...she told me to give comment seriously after the show....MAN...she is a lousy lier....but I like it^^

after that, another freaking thing happened.....i accidentally threw my mobile phone together wif the plastic bag into the bin....i din know that at first...and then we 2 and her fellowship friends searched the whole field to find my precious= =.....

rly rly luckily, the phone was right beside of the rubbish bin but not in the grand canyon.....sadly thing was....i pulled them all into trouble and they have to helped me to find it and also deal up the mess that we did since we pulled down a few numbers of rubbish bins to figure out if it is underneath><


Anyways, thankz Ani.....for inviting me to join the gathering...as i told u, ur voice is very nice....but just need to be more confident and practice^^

Mr. V3i, please do not ever make troubles anymore, can U????

Nxt week mission : Law Presentation + powerpoint....dunno how to fix the mess up....my study is getting worse n worse

Nxt year Decision : double major (economics + financial Planning) @ Bachelor of Business (UTS)

Late NIte Update

Lately no more korean fever ald.....just feel a lil bit like a coward....like dun wanna start another one.....afraid that i might hurt again...i guess i like somebody now....just LIKE....INTERESTED....
but somehow, dun wanna start it....cos i know i m just feeling emotional lonely.....probably thatz the reason that i like oldies lately...but sry....those are old 80 and 90's cantonese and mandarin songs
^^

My playlist lately:

1. 幻影 - 譚詠麟
2. 大海 - 張雨生
3. 每天愛你多一些 - 張學友
4. 水手 - 鄭智化
5. 對不起,我愛你 - 黎明
6. 痴心還情深 - 周慧敏
7. 橄欖樹 - 薺豫
8. 狼 - 齊秦
9. 那有一天不想你 - 黎明
10. 驟暖的緣分 - 郭富城 + 吳倩蓮

sry...I hate Andy Lau.....

just realised that my blog is getting bored...no new topics...wadeva...this is not a blog anyways...it is my diary^^

空虛 PART II

Things had been doing lately : WORK + WORK + WORK
Things had been saying every night : Hi How are you + Have a good night = ="
Dialogues that had to repeat every night :

1. Just a Plain Pie, it is 3 90 MATE~!
2. Large Chips with Gravy 4 20 please
3. Buy 5 pies and you will get one free pie
4. Any sauces or toppings for you MATE??
   
5. It's 30 cents for the sauce MATE~!
   

Worst side effect after working:

1. Dreamed that i m using the registry machine
2. Repeating the dialogues while I am sleeping (my flatmate told me)
3. May not attend lectures or tutorial programs=.=
4. Smoke heavier
   

Duration: 34.5 hours for a week ( i m only allowed to work 40 hours for 2 weeks)

Things that pissed me off:

1. Assignments
2. My picky store manager a.k.a. supervisor
3. ask for my favor in a very rude way (only that fucking guy)
   

My Xmas Wishes :

1. get rid of troubles (especially when ppl asking my help on assignments)
   
2. day offs
3. Pass all the subjects in this semester (cos i cannot concentrate fully on it)
   

frankly speaking, this is the first time i was sooo looking forward to XMAS, but i m sure i wun get an off day on those days=.=""

anyways....XMAS is coming, so i also changed the song into a XMAS song....it din sounded a XMAS song tho...puhaha~!~!~!

Conclusion : My Social Life is DEAD

放不下=.=''

他都不愛我 - 容祖兒 + 吳浩康

＊女：若我難以討好一個人
　　　難道要怪天主作弄人
　　　無論被他怎麼吸引
　　　都不必再等　就算肯

　男：若我能夠喜歡一個人
　　　其實已經珍惜慶幸　能情不自禁
　　　 縱使不過是一場興奮　仍樂意奮身＊

＃女：他都不愛我　男：他雖不愛我
　女：難道我毫無骨氣　張開這耳朵
　男：聽清楚　女：聽真他親口說
　合：你別做夢　得到好結果

　男：他都不愛我　女：不算是我錯
　男：我很清楚
　合：他　未愛我都掛念我
　男：誰想他　掛念我＃
Repeat＊＃

合：還能期望甚麼　還能遺憾甚麼
　　就是沒結果　他都感激我
　　從來期望越多　回頭遺憾越多 Wow~
Repeat＃

女：若我能夠喜歡這個人
男：同樣也可將心放在還能愛的人
女：亦有信心　可以愛別人
男：未來也總有人　和我熱吻
女：一個人　同樣開心

放心吧....不是寄歌訴苦....只是一時興起....剛剛找到某處地方的朋友翻唱這首歌,爆好聽的

http://www.key3.net/aone/posting/viewsong1.asp?filename=188107200592621136

不過這首歌應該是她唱男的部分吧...哈哈哈哈=.=''

Korean Fever Over

Two hours in UTS:Insearch Graduation ceremony

Venue: Sydney Convention Center (Darling Harbour)
Time: November 8 2007 2.pm-3.30pm
Reason I was there: To accept my merit certificate



Me before ceremony→













→Apriani (a.k.a. Ani), most diligent girl I know in my campus













↓
Me receiving award




















→After ceremony











↓
Tony Ng, 5 semesters, Merit + Prize, Top Student=.=""




Left: Julie→
Right: Angela→














→ Me And Angela











↓
Tony and Me




































Me and Ji Eun, the kindest korean girl i know in my campus.....she is graduating (Science and Engineering)










→Me and Ani











Reason that I look fat : 1.) not enuf sleep
2.) toothache
3.) Camera made me fat

Conclusion: those reason are all true...Puhahahahhahahahahahaha=.=""

空虛 PART I

最近一直都沒有update了...不過還有幾個人問我為何沒有update.....無論如何還是蠻感激的呢....

之前有打算是不是要用中文寫....說白一點就是我的英文太爛了...不能好好表達...哈哈...所以,中文爛的人...抱歉了....

這幾個星期一直都在打工,搞到生理不平衡(晝夜顛倒,別想太多).....盡了很大的努力後,未竟...輪到心裡不平衡了...真是他媽的`~!~!~!

其實大家別怪我這次會寫得很亂,因為我都不懂要如何去整理和組織...只能一句到尾...感到灰心.....
怎麼說好呢.....就是應該是一些對某些東西的定義的問題吧......

最近跟他斷絕關係了....其實大家都沒說...只是心裡都經已有共識了.....來龍去脈是.....如果他跟那個男生沒一腿,就不必躲開我,大方承認就好了....雖然不知道是不是有...可是都已經很明顯了....這已經不是單單的暗戀問題...而是朋友之間的問題....之前還說我是他在學校裡最好的朋友...雖然知道是假的,但還是滿高興的....現在這樣根本就是撕破面具嗎!!!!!本來還很感激他的說,既然搞到那樣也就算了....又不是第一次^^

反正...這幾句(紅色的)最能形容我現在對他的感覺吧

歌名:驟暖的緣份
歌手:郭富城 + 吳倩蓮

作曲:胡偉立,  編曲:黃尚偉
監製:,  填詞:小美

女：無聲的等　是甘心去等　去等這初生的夢
　　沒法計算明或暗　只知熱愛無憾
男：夢想撲空了再見了　沒法交低深愛一句
　　淚水沾濕的雙眼　未甘願垂下

合：未許分開心中摯愛　為你偷生　死也相愛
　　未許改寫的天意　剩一臉無奈

男：誰肯甘心　讓蒼天處分　放低最愛戀的人
女：但你暗裏留下我
男：結束驟暖緣份

Lies n Secrets~!~!

Actually i had been struggling for a while for writing post in bloggie....i dunno if today is a gud time for me for posting sth up.....but people will disappointedly say...."No pics again......only text again"
well.....it was true i really made many people disappointed...especially my sister.....

I told lies to her.....well....i dunno if how other people will think of it....my reason for lying..people might say very ridiculous....it was bcos i dun wanna let them disappointed...even my parents or anybody....i really hesitated to tell the truth whenever that stuff will disappointed anybody.... I m just like a short-nose Pinocchio...luckily GOD did not put a curse on me...otherwise i will have the longest nose in the universe.....anyways....i had been telling countless lies to everybody, sometimes i can't realise which one is the truth, which one is the lie...... I just feel my life is a failure...I have to always aware of my lies in case they are being exposed to any person.......I live in a very cunning way...but the most shameless is...i can still act very normal to anybody.....

Sometimes i feel very happy when somebody says i m naive, i m still a kid....cos probably i m really immature yet.....I m just wasting my parent's money....letting them down even though my results are satisfied.......probably that was the only thing i can proud of it in front of my parents...


I don't really care if I m being took advantage....I guess that's a way to make myself not feeling guilty....especially in my workplace....i know i m being treated as a cheap labour...pushing down my wage bcos i m only 19....who cares.....many of the customers like me...i really tried my best to work on it....i never complain on anything.....i was really satisfied for getting my first work pay...but then....when I got my second workpay....i was deeply upset....my first workpay was 420AUD for 25 hours, but then it turned to be 700AUD for 60 hours...not only that....i have to pay 660AUD for my rent for the next month...

After that, my sister discovered my biggest lie onto her....$$ stuffs.....I just can't get rid of my biggest bad habit ---- splashing cash....splashing the money like a pinch of salt...
Anyways....i really feel i shuld get mature already.....

I think i should thank Hea Yun as well.....she knows my personality alot.... n she knows i wun suit her....it is still confusing between me n her....but few days ago....just when i came back on work....i chatted wif her on MSN....n then i realised sth..... i will just keep this as my secret....at least this secret is harmless to anybody.... Everybody needs secrets anyways.....even tho it is good or bad one...

Hea Yun....Thank you for motivating me last semester, it was a very precious memory to be teaching you....sitting beside you....knowing of you....I dunno if you really have a boy friend or not....I realised that I Love You, but I can also LIVE WITHOUT YOU

I really feel more comfortable after this post....GUD TIMING^^

Show-offing post~!

YoYoYo.....I just got my results today....hehe....quite happy for it....but also there is some imperfect....anyways....i m fully satisfied on it.....and somehow i managed to hacked into Hea Yun's account to know her results as well
(it was only because my password is same as hers)

Here are our results......


Actually it is bad to put her results up, but she doesn't this blog so i think it doesn't matter right??just i feel a lil bit guilty on it><

I think I can get loads of money after next week....cos i had been working for 11days on two weeks.....but know wad.....Sydney lately have loads of MOTHS......moth disaster.....argh~!!~!~!~

I can now declare one thing.......I HATE MOTHS

Hope Or Disappointment????

It has been a long time i haven't updated my blog.....well..not only me then....others also rarely update theirs as well......how shuld i say.....is it bcos we dun hv much things to write or just bcos we are either lazy or busy????well..for my case it is the second one....rly i have bunches of shits to burst out

well...exam has finished already........n i have to work work n work on holidays....all midnite shifts><... i guess my results in this term will be gud.....cos i only miss out 3 out of 50 marks before the exam.so i have 47 marks on hand...i din lose any marks on finance before the exam so it gets me 40 out of 40....while as Management even tho i already pass that subject but i still stayed up all nite to memorize those fricking theories...i wun expect too much on management anyways....while for econ....i cant expect too high on it...a credit is satisfied for me....it wud be a surprise if i score a distinction on it....but frankly speaking....my aim for this term was scoring all distinctions....i had already confirmed one...which is report writing...78 (Distinction)...hehe...i hope i can show off my results again here....but mostly the more hope i put...the larger i will get disappointed....just same as Hea Yun stuffs

I remembered that i said i wun write Hea Yun anymore....yet the blog was named after her....so i guess i shuld write her all the time....One word.....she seemed to be...dunno how to face me....omg...thankz to my shanghai fd.....he keep on telling her that i like her n say this n that....in fact she ald knew it b4 he said that to her...b4 it was ok....just after that incident.....there was a minor change between me n she....we both know that but din wan to touch it...cos wad happen was....there was a korean guy who is using her in order to do revision....hea yun has a textbook....n then ended up some ppl thought they were a couple.....in fact hea yun rly hate that guy...cos that guy said she is ugly n not qualified to be his gf.....n then insulting her all the time....nearly every korean connection at our campus hates him......the last time they scolding each other was when they are in library....in front of me....it is unlucky that i cant understand korean...otherwise i will rly beat him up like a pig....after that...i texted hea yun n said i shuld defend for her.....sth like that.....

n now she cant even dare to look on my face..sth like that....

Robotic Vs. Humanic Life

Feel lazy to update the blog lately....well....a part of it is bcos of my packed life....or the other stuffs shuld be.....nth to say

I barely get a time to rest for a week...cos i started to work in a pie shop....n then last week i hv 3 consecutive overnite shifts..n all my shifts starts from 11pm to 4am..so starting from last wednesday...my sleeping time is very limited...

Wednesday wake up on 11am.....din sleep until Thursday 6pm..but only slept an hour slept again on Friday 6am n then have to wake up on 10 for my last tutorial class n lecture after that started my long long study week....i get a pretty gud sleep on that nite....from 2am to 10am.....n then being a tutor for whole day...wif my all friends and Hea Yun as well......it was on Saturday....

n then Sunday...bloody day....wake up at 11am....tutor again....Finance final exam was on Monday...n then taught my fds till 5am....slept at my campus for an hour...n then i went back home to have a gud sleep....but ended up late for my final exam...i late for half an hour....but luckily i m god on finance (thatz wad my friends all said)...i still finished early...cos some of my fds cant finish it...well i guess i m showing off myself ald....what the heck

after the exam.....i directly rushed to campus to continue my second session...revision for Economics.....I started on 4pm....well...All of my fds including Hea Yun was there as well.....n then we stayed up whole nite again.....but poor Hea Yun...her korean fds left her alone after 1am....n she was rly great....she can stay up till 5am n go back home....i was rly hoping that i can send her back home....but impossible though..haha....i arrived home at 8am...slept for around 4 hours....n i hv to wake up for the exam...well...quite disappointed for today's exam....cos i ald know i lost heaps of marks...wadeva...have to focus on nxt quest...Accounting + Management n i still have to work on friday n saturday T_T...but a gud thing was...

i met n teach heaps of hot chicks this week

i was rly feeling weird....love stuffs again...hehe....i mean i rly learn a lot thru this experience....well...of cos wif many ppl's help....n even she even took the credit of this blog's name....my only solution iz.....treat her same as usual...i guess she was the same...pretending nth happen at all....well...still we 2 are very gud fds.....i rly cant imagine that i will confess on the time she told me that she has a bf ald in korea.....Life is just.........UNPREDICTABLE

ANYWAYS....FIGHTING..FIGHTING...YEAH^^

CooL CooL CooL

Quite many stuffs happened....But aLL are Gud News

well....as everybody who read this blog knows.....Hea Yun has a BF....n he is now in Korea....Domestic Partnership.....well....me n she has turned to mhmm......probably very very gud fds......well...quite complicated tho.....i mean my inner feelings....it is was like......erm....everything changes very fast....until last week...i was still in crush of her.....turn turned out to be ' can tell wadeva stuffs' type fd....

Just after the job interview....i started my first job shift in my life.....it was enjoyable...n two nites ago was my second shift...n also my permanent working shift since the first shift i was put in different place.....that place was totally awesome......a beautiful beach in front of it....tourist areas wif pubs......well....that also means i may encounter more issues there...

Yesterday was Bowie's Bday party....she invited me and her fds to karaoke box....10++ ppl gather in one room n then drinking n singing.....thatz fabulous.....but ended up no voice this
morning......trust me....my singing has improved already.....still looking forward we can sing someday^^

Today i just went to study with hea yun.....n then have a lunch (dim sum)...it was her first time she had dim sum in her life.....well.....quite happy tho..hehe....chat loadz of stuffs n i urged her to introduce some gals for me..hehe....of cos korean gals..i feel it is the time to colour my life already^v^..i dunno......i feel that many korean gals are attractive....anyways...thatz wad i asked her.....n she promised me too...hehe...luckily i know her stuffs earlier..otherwise ended up disappointed more^^

N then goes to another issue...i m very sry to everybody that i cannot come....but i promise i will send stuffs to u all....so be look forward on it^^


P.S. : Please forgive me that i cannot include too many ppl for the presents...due to my lack of money

My frame of mind is now in fully released stage....n i m looking forward to facing new relationships..hehe

New Era~!

After all, she has a boy friend already....she admitted it to me without my confession~!~!so in other words, she doesnt know that i like her.......i was shocked that time.....but just only a minute...i returned to a very calm state.....then i told her that i like her.....n telling her that dun be afraid of me(not by words, but just to let her feel).....i probably assumed this situation already....otherwise i will be very very very sad........or is it because i m too sad until i cannot make any normal reactions????

well..in fact, i m not doing too obvious tho........but this is a very great n precious experience to me....like how bebek told me....dun put too much hope.....that rly helped me.......i m not sure if i had ever put any hopes on it.....but i admit i do rly like her.......no matter what.....everything done is done...i once told somebody that there is 80% that i can success....n now turned up i have to find a hole to hide ald.....it is rly a shame on me......cos i guess gals doesn't like being treated as a gambling tool tho...if someone ask me when she has a bf...i will say i dunno...cos i dun wanna ask too much...even tho i rly wanted to know it....mayb thatz a hint that i m rly sad...haha~!~!~!
i shuldnt say sad anyways....the term disappointed might be better.....probably i m expecting better than this kinda result....it is quite complicated tho.....it was like....all the efforts of me are gone (i think i never put efforts on it)...but one of my motive force is gone as well....n of cos....my worries are all gone.....

So...Friends.......thank u very much for supporting me for so long....but the story has ended already...n a happy ending as well...nobody get hurt^^

Please do not say ' dun be sad'...cos i m not sad.....losing her was not everything(in fact i never have her)

Please do not ask any further details about her bf or sth....she has the right of not telling me...n i dun necessary to ask her anyways......it wun help me at all^^

Please laugh at me....cos that make me better...jeer at me....so that i will learn the mistakes n bcome motivative

Please dun feel sorry for me.....my blog name is rollercoastingbear.blogspot.com...therefore it shuld have up n downs....when u r going up....u wun know when u will down...when u r down...it will be a relief...cos u r down already....u wun get down anymore

to Apple....Please congratulate me....my blog will become more interesting already...no more hea yun....

to bebek n mel mel...... Please forgive me....ur tactics are very useful but those are just for single girls....

to Zhi how.....Please laugh at me....cos i made u disappointed

to Joenna....Please be confident on urself....n Please dun hit me after u read this post^^

Anyways.....2/9/07 7.08pm.... first attempt failed^^

Time will decide everything^^

P.S : Please wish me luck...i have job interview tomolo^^

Tiring........Exciting.....Shocking.....Depressing

I hope i can still withstand for a few days.....cos i m gettin devastated ald....

well...my class had a debate today....it was totally like bitches vs. Gentlemen......but there are no winners tho....after the class ended...we all exchanged our contact details to finish our individual report........HAHA....That is Not Plagiarism...since the tutor allowed us to do it so....

after Management tutorial.....Renee phoned me to help her assignments.......Marketing......I Know nth on it......but also tried my best to help her....Then have a lunch wif her........

After Lunch I submitted my essay.....well...the tutor ask us to proofread other student's work...my draft essay was proofread by a Local Aussie....i dunno where is he from...Guinta is from which country's surname -_-

I know my english was very bad....n rly appreciate his teaching to me....i was being tortured reports till i can forget how to write an essay already.......Oh My God....well....i really need a hard work on it......he said i have very gud points but just grammar and i shuld present it logically.....

After that class.....i was rly rly tired.....but Hea Yun phoned me to get sources from her.....lately i was getting very close wif her...hope she wun feel uneasy....

(Finally i got a clearer version of her drawings)

n i decided to skip today's econ tutorial....i then moved my body to Fellowship's gathering place...to get some refreshments from daily life....after a short gathering there...Coffee break wif Renee......

I then received a call.....n it was a very shocking call...n i cant even know how to response the caller.....she said my job application they are following up...but wanna know the shift available n the location....n u know...i was tooooo nervous to answer the questions....they asked me to phone them back.....however...i forgot the ask the caller's name....ARGH~!~!~!~!
I hope they will still follow up my case...cos that company is a big company...........damn it.....
My sis is surely gonna kill me if i cant work on that company.........><><>

Devastated...........Eating Kimchi Fried Rice now...but failure cooking><

Update: Hea Yun Requested me not to tell anyone about our talking n keep it as secret...What Does it Mean????

Crap Post

28/8/07:Total Moon Eclipse occured above the sky of Sydney....n i witnessed it on 8.29pm...when i was in campus...having a small break (smoking)....the whole moon turned red....mayb some ppl said it is very normal....but it was the first time i see a red moon.......witnessed by my eyes....i wish i could watch wif her....or probably she is watching it wif whoever....hikzz.....

I hope i m thinking too much~!!~!~!~

today i accompanied her to buy some bread...after the accounting lecture....cos she has another class on 1.30....so then i accompanied her to buy breads for her lunch....n then photocopied.....i dunno....but probably people who dunno us might think we 2 are couples........

anyways....quite a happy day for today....but happiness wun ever last for long.....

Management report nxt week.....one essay on Thursday.....Econ Quiz nxt nxt week.....n the most important is....

Final Exam On 3 Weeks Time...........ARGH~!!!!

DoEs GuEsSiNg HeLp Me????

lately just feel that my six sense is getting stronger......ok....this will be a very boring post....

this hypothesis can be initially trail back to Friday night, 24 august 2007....i was on the halfway on the work at my campus....after that....Oscar and I went down in front of the campus....n SMOKE(it helped reduce tireness...trust me)....the sky was cloudy...n then i told Oscar that ' tonite will be a very rainy day.' . n guess wad???after 5 seconds, the sky is pee-ing....it rained heavily....n oscar mocked me by using the nickname i earned in Australia------ SAINT......they are always relying me on their assignments....like how to solve this question...how to find sources text....how to calculate this question....and always
ended up
' CAN YOU PLEASE DO IT FOR ME?' or ' CAN YOU SEND YOUR WORK TO ME?'......

well...probably Saint also carries the attribute of a prophet huh???

As mentioned above, the statement is also supported by the following incident: Just yesterday...i was being a saint again...(well..in fact i was doing my own group assignment for Accounting more....)....after i took off the mask and the robe of a saint....i was inspired by wadeva nerve to change my msn name to following ' The calamity in this moment is to welcome the arrival of disaster ...n then after 3 seconds....i log on to my campus' intranet...n then i saw the following
' the softcopy of the assignment is to be due monday 11.59pm...'

Damn...so thatz wad i call disaster huh???my group member still din hand in all the answers to me......but luckily i merely solved it today...hehe

N then for today....(Be Aware.....it was those stuffs again....)....I was late on today's finance lecture (thankz to Ranma1/2)....n then i saw her alone...but i chose to sat in front of my other fd....ok...better get to the topic..b4 the management lecture...i chit chat wif her for a while....n then Gary suddenly sat bside me......guess wad hea yun did??she looked at me sadly n ask for my permission to let her sat to the other seats...well...thatz wad i felt that time....feel pity for Gary tho.....it was very obvious that Hea Yun doesnt want to talk wif Gary anymore....Y u still sticking her????n i realised one thing....Hea Yun always turned her head back to see wad i(or gary??) doing...n then i caught a glimpse of her...she then immedietely turn her face back.....
So iz it a sign of Love????or just a normal reaction for most Asians???

One Last Question : Are those Coincidence? Or Destiny? I need Saints or Prophet to explain for me!!!!!!!cos i m NEITHER of these 2 holy creatures....................

Chasing Rollercoaster...Yet..experiencing Rollercoasting Mood

i had a very terrible weekend last week.....i was rly wishing that i could hv assignments to do....however....last week..i was kinda free...n i cant realise wad can i do...damn~!~!~! I was excited when i knew that i would go to PUB n enjoy some on Saturday...but it turned up chit chatting....the costly thing was...i was too rushed till i have to simply buy a wadeva ciggy...damn it.....argh~!~!~!i wasted money again...OK...after arrived the PUB...the atmosphere was very weird...cos one of my fd is sleeping...n one of my fd's fd was on emo condition....so i din even hv the mood to drink anymore..instead...chit chatting....crapping...smoking wif my gangs....argh~!~!~!

the day turned on to Sunday....slept till 3pm....then apple onlined....then she pointed out y i was feeling down....even if i din ever feel it...i was down bcos of hea yun....cos she was acting a lil bit cold to me last week.....keep on telling me that i can leave after the tutorial...god...u always know that i wanna be wif you...n then u was acting like avoiding me...well...if u wanna so...i will do it....
But on that night....
my heart like riding a roller coaster rite from the bottom...n moving up...until now~!~!hehe....

what happened was....she online n chatted craps wif me....talking of her stuffs or so as my stuffs.....

Monday.....she appeared again on Finance Lecture...she was supposed to be on Wednesday...but turned up on Monday....i made 3 assumptions of this:
1.) to avoid GARY
2.) to meet her KOREAN FDS
3.) to see me~!~!~!(IMPOSSIBLE~!~!~!)

Before the lecture starts, i helped her to fix her ipod....cos she made the same mistake i had made...the whole ipod lag.....she was rly appreciated cos she was feeling annoyed when she realised that her ipod isnt working(thatz wad she told me later on MSN)

During the break....i asked her if she wanna eat sth...thus...we 2 went to the bread shop n ate breakfast(i dunno if it was her breakfast as well).....i bet she likes the ube bread on that pie shop...cos i saw her ate it twice ald.....




Guess wadz that????those are wad we had done on today's Management Lecture....she rly rly hate Management Lecture i guess...drawing MSN emoticons during the class...she showed me...n then...i was being an evil again...asking her to draw some other emoticons....n ended up i drew the last one for her....the rightest face on second row was mine...n then wad i had done nxt...i guess everybody knows....otherwise this pic wun appear......after that.....we was tired of drawing MSN emoticon...turned up drawing her phone.....of cos...i caught my chance to let her draw my handphone as well....n then we both took the drawing a pic by using our own handphone....after break she asked me if i wanna go...of cos i will....then i was stopped by GARY...but sry GARY...HEA YUN is more important to me now~!~!~!

After that....I changed my saint robe n helping my Gang member Oscar to do his group assignment on Statistics...well...i m expert ald on those stuffs..cos last semester...i finished the whole report by myself....in other words...i did whole group work...B4 that...we went to buy a hot choc....but frankly speaking..
the cup which Hea Yun treated me b4 was the best...
n then worked as a SAINT for 5 hrs...till 8.45...then i moved directly to comp...after putting my clothes to wash...bathing...n taking out my dinner....it was 9 on that time...greeted Hea Yun again....n guess wad....the longest period we chat together in MSN....3hrs and 48minutes.....n she chatted how she rly hate GARY rite now....n then crapping n gossiping.....tho few conversation made me down a bit..like...i dun rly wanted to sit wif u...but she explained it was bcos of GARY...cos he tend to be close wif me....n then sharing many thoughts of everything.....n then in a topic...
i suddenly asked her ' Do you Love Me?'...well...very normal...cos it came from a word 'People Loves me'..
puhaha~!~!guess wad she said????
NO...........then followed by just kidding~!~!~!

Today's Lesson : Coincidence comes from Destiny (Yoon, H.Y. 2007, MSN Conversation)

P.S:
1.Oh My God...i din know that the 2nd picture would be that bad.....in fact it was her phone NOKIA6288 and My Phone on the Right MOTOROLA V3i

2.BREAKING NEWS: Zhi How might have a girl friend on coming days....The Gal's Name is Ribena....Congratulation....i m sure u can make it^^...so i must GAMBATE as well^^
Any queries plz refer http://www.wretch.cc/blog/m0nt0k or his email address fack_s_hole@hotmail.com

Sentimental Love Story

Din hv much feelings of taking pics lately...life recently was kinda too mechanic...my house iz getting quiet than ever b4...the atmosphere rly got wierd....a lot of indescribable feelings in my mind....watched a series recommended by apple....BUT one certain thing i know iz ....my subconscious will automatically put hea yun on my mind every nite...i rly wonder wad she is so attractive to me..but i just cant stop~!~!same feeling goes like when a bull sees red n it will rush onto it....but so far...our relationships can just stand on ' Good Friends '....topic revolving us surely related to studies.......i guess i did made some hints on her.....but i rly know that...i m not worth to be loved...cos i m too weak....always depending on everybody's help.....

Even though we sit together on every tutorials..even if i always acted as her tutor...even if i always wish her luck b4 exams...even if i didn't get any responses from her......well....i feel satisfied ald...probably is bcos i dun wanna make my fairy tale turn into a nightmare....that goes to Gary....who told me that he was totally disappointed of Hea Yun...cos she is avoiding him...well..i do rly sure that he likes her...but i guess he oso knew that i like her...so as hea yun...well...I have got a question for gals.....What will u think of the guy if the guy who always encourage u on studies n exams....try his best to help u on studies...concern of ur living condition when the weather turned bad...trying to adapt ur interest....would u ask urself if the guy iz interested on urself or not??

well...frankly speaking, if i were the gal, i wun like the boy....cos he din make me like being chased...he acts more like erm...brother i think....i m quite stupid rite now....cos if i wanna know the answer, i shuld only ask her....the fastest way to know the answer...well...actually i do know the answer after all...it took time to get her....however, i was rly satisfied on this current condition, cos lately she was more relying on me...

Accounting tutorial on Wednesday, we had a mid-term exam..i purposely picked earlier time to go to skool, cos i was suppose to revise it more, however, she smsed me n i told her that i was coming...just 6 minutes later, she phoned me ald...i wasnt at skool yet...but she was quite anxious i think...i dunno..when i arrived the classroom...it was only she....after that...i acted as a tutor again...well...actually i ald covered nearly all for the Accounting...then...b4 the exam starts...the tutor has to rearrange the chairs...after that...i, hea yun and my other fd went into a embarrassing condition....cos my fd wans me to help him but then there are only 2 seats left on the end row...cos i oso nid to help hea yun...then i was doubting where to sit...my fd was urging me to sit bside him...then hea yun suddenly grabbed my arm to pull me down to the seat bside her....well...i m not a ninja...cant duplicate myself...so i ended up ignoring them two...letting them sit the last row...i rly dunno how would they feel that time..i guess hea yun would feel that i m weak n not worthed to be loved....puhaha~!~!

I rly feel that Gary iz oso angry wif me..probably bcos i worked well wif hea yun...he told me that hea yun never replies him ever since that day....n for today's finance tutorial, hea yun purposely asked me to switch seat wif her...cos she usually sits on my left, but the nxt 2 seat was Gary (last tutorial Gary sat on her left), she used me as her wall to block Gary....n then as usual, Finance tutorial iz all about doing exercises...n as usual, i acted as her tutor..automatically, it was like being a tutor of she had bcame a part of my duty ald....n thankz to my teaching (i dunno if it rly is), her finance had improved greatly, the pace had gone faster n it is error free....then she kept on telling me that i can go first cos i finished earlier...of cos i din...but i recalled Gary's case, so i din follow her even when she left the room....n Gary was acting very cool to me....oh god..i had become his enemy i guess...i dunno if i hate him or not...but apple sed she felt i hate him...RLY...i m not sure if I'm~!~!!

after that, econ lecture, i asked her if i can sit bside her...it was odd rite???i dunno...i felt like if i dun ask her, she might felt unconfortable..but after i ask her, i felt very awkward...y i nid to ask her????Thank her anyways...she consoled me on the individual assignment..cos i was rly down on it...i tried my best n get only credit, i do expect it to achieve distinction....but my report wasnt rly gud after all....cos i knew it....just bcos i tried my best, i hoped it had distinction...but turned out a disappointing result....well...our relationship seemed like cannot reach more further ald....

As i asked my lurve consultants....some told me not to give too much hope, some said just give her sometime......GodDamn.....i m just stuck on these stuffs..........cos i rly dunno how she feel towards me.........but another certain thing was....Mel was correct....I m just a Master of Crapping..If i were u guys....i will say....this person's blog are all very long n stinks....all bout hea yun n no other fresh stuffs....i just get annoyed if the person keeps on asking me to read his/her blog...cos it never related to me

God.....the most amazing miracle occured in my life was...i feel there are 2 souls in my body but i was still remain normal n din get crazy......(perhaps i was crazy ald....cos a lunatic never knows that they had gone insane ald...)

P.S. : plz ignore this post, cos i was just being pessimistic today~!~!~!~!~! (i bet u guys will listen to me...thank u)

TiMe Iz EsSeNcE oF LiFe Part 2

lately it is a tiring day...i was being tortured by ACCOUNTING.........i was suppose be able to do the entries...but i keep on making silly mistakes and making myself confuse...ended up i hv to look through the whole book again....

I was very happy to see Hea Yun on Monday morning lecture..Finance???she was supposed to be on wednesday..but i was shocked when i saw her this morning....well...as i asked her on the following lecture(Management), she said bcos she wanna study accounting....n the previous semester..the failing rate on Accounting was 40%..that means...4 out of 10 fail accounting n u can find 2 ppl fail on 5 ppl....
SEE...thatz how accounting attempt a kill
hikzz...it was rly rly crap.....

Well...just now..(7/8/2007 9:30pm) hea yun onlined...then she asked me sth bout my fd Gary...well...this Gary boy was nth...probably he also likes hea yun n then the scenario was...he was always bside her..n Hea Yun felt uncomfortable..so this morning on Management lecture, she switch the seat after Yumiko came (she was sitting bside Gary b4), well...it was quite obvious anyways..cos it wasnt the first time ald..she did the same the week before, on econ lecture...n i was bside her as well...i do rly know it was nth to me cos she just wan to sit wif Yumiko...n thus...Hea Yun told me how she feel of Gary...she said Gary iz gud to be a fd...but when she n gary r too close, she felt uncomfortable n thus we wanna make a line between her n Gary...My first reaction iz....iz the line is made for Gary or me as well????of cos it was on my mind....however, i do rly feel it was made for me cos after she explained a lot...then she asked me ' can u understand me??' well...at that time i can only say ' i hope i can'...n i guess that was the best answer to deal wif this situation....particularly...i gained a lot today....gathered many infos of her....oh man...i was like stalking her...!~!~!Argh!~!~!anyways...one conclusion....

Patience means everything if i wanted her~!!

I have to pass my Accounting~!~!~!~!~!i shall never be killed by that crap~!~!~!

btw...hea yun showed her new ipod nano to me...red colour special edition...rly rly gorgeous...same as the owner...puhaha~!~!~! dun scold me for writing this...thank u~!~!

Update: on 6.09pm

an hour ago...hea yun suddenly online....n she asked me for accounting problems...then in the middle, she revealed how Gary was pissed off her...n talked so many stuffs...well..on Gary's msn, his shoutout was ' i m in the middle of :-) and :-( '...well...how can he treat her like that...sending sms to say that ' i m angry wif u '...be a guy plz...n i hv to thank Gary a lot...cos i know her feelings onto me ald....

2 conclusion :
1.) I was thinking too much last nite...there was nth related to me~!~!~!
2.) She doesnt know I like her

TiMe Iz EsSeNcE oF LiFe Part 1

lately there are too many ppl from my house left...some went to travel..some went back to their hometown...some went somewhere else....tears and joys are mixing together in this house...one joyful thing iz an annoying guy who was being hatred by whole house mates finally left...i rly rly cant stand him of being rude...always asking for ciggys...i hv to say thank u very much to Jenn...for lending me so much ciggys last yr...i finally know wadz the feeling of it..surely it is a Karma..

Just on Saturday, we had a party and we did take a lot of pics...cos the two who are leaving getz full respect from other flatmates..they two are my best fd in the apartment...i m rly sad to see them leaving....so thatz y...it is rly rly true we hv to cherish the times we are being together...trust me...be more caring to ppl who are staying bside u...I haven't celebrate my bday wif my parents for 5 yrs...n i wasn't bothered on to it...but things changed last yr, on my 18th bday...i suddenly realised that it was totally a grief n sorrow for not being wif ur family on the most memorable bday of ur life.....

we had a party on Saturday, i was supposed to post this on Sunday...but however, Pil n I chatted whole nite...n i was the only one to bid farewell to him b4 he left..cos i rly feel that he will be lonely for being alone at the house...cos he planned not to sleep whole nite....therefore, i accompanied him till 7am, b4 he left, we 2 are watching ' Harry Potter : the Order of the Phoenix', i realised that the actress who starred as Luna Lovegood was very pretty....adorable~!~!i rather she to be Ginny cos everybody knows Harry will end wif Ginny~!~!

And the another flatmate who left was Sun Kyeon Lunna (a.k.a Joule), she was rly rly nice...treated me countless of sushis...talked a lot of her life....n she was (might be) the only one i can share everything of mine to her....she was always trouble on drinking alcohol.....alcoholic...making lotz of laughters to the house..so everybody likes her...n she was the oldest in the house..so we all respect her...she was going to travel...rly look forward to seeing her again soon....

PicCaZzZ we took:


(Muslims prohibited)


( This yucky stuff makes a very delicious dish)


(Thatz Wad the yucky stuff bcome)


(Simple, yet very delicious)


(Thatz Wad we produce everyday)


(Thatz the man known as Pil《Not Pill》)


(Haizz..my face was too big ald)


(our darker side)


(Our Bright Side)


( LETZZZ HUG)


( 3 guys...who are waiting for true love..It's TRUE)


( Last Pic wif Sun Kyeon LuNnA)


(Last letter from JouLe......a farewell letter)

UpDaTe~!~! (A ReQuEsT FrOm AppLe Ko)

Ok then...AppLe wans it...so i update sth...tho today rly iz a meaningless day.....

ThiNgs i had done on this holiday:

1. sleep on 3.00am onwards everyday
2. wake up on 1.00pm onwards everyday
3. download suzuka and watch suzuka animes
4. save money as much as possible
5. send greetings to hea yun b4 the econ mid term exam
6. studied econ
7. read harry potter
8. dissected my flatmate's laptop
9. cook for myself everyday
10. watched a korean movie n ended up crying
11. ate laksa wif my fd on QVB (1 laksa = 6.2AUD )
12. shopped kinokuniya bookshop
13. used the ATM machine
14. Buy ciggys
15. trained KOF
16. checked how to reduce the pain of my toothache
17. observe my teeth everyday
18. took painkillers
19. log on MSN everyday
20. update this blogspot

ThiNgzZ i must do but din do

1. the most crucial one → find a job
2. clean up my room
3. revise my study
4. phoned my dad n mum
5.phoned my sista
6.at least phoned to hea yun once
7. throw the rubbish in my room
7. wash my bedsheets
8. update my xanga blog
9. attend gathering on my society
10. work on group assignments

Reason why din do the stuffs i nid to do : LAZINESS

well....anyways...holiday iz nearly end...it is impossible to accomplish all the task that had left me to do (see...thatz wad we call laziness)......then i can see Hea Yun on Monday..ckckckck
Australia's weather iz very creepy...yesterday it was like a summer afternoon..then this morning..rained n returned to usual winter days...argh!~!~!~!n know wad...my house just came an old pal...he used to stay in this apartment then went to Melbourne for studies..however, he moved back to our apartment...just for a week...but i was happy enuf...cos he was one of the best flatmate i had ever met...he is from korea..his name iz pil(not pill)...he speaks fluent english cos he studied in Canada....but he is going back to korea ald...well...Sun Kyeon Lunna must be very happy to see him (I wonder if she likes him)...mhmm..Wish him all the best...and he is going to Canberra wif Sun Kyeon lunna on saturday.....i guess i can start study ald...puhaha~!~!~!

bsides on the writing...Miss Apple Ko Wai Sze(D.O.B. 28/7/1991) also requested me to post some piccas...so there u go Ms Apple....hope u will like it!~!~!


(The Last SuShi brought by JouLe..cos She Quited her job)


(a Salad from Korean Restaurant)


(KimChi PanCake....with an apple to keep doctor away)


(I cant tell you what the dish is...cos u can eat that in many different ways...
it is my cooking)


( SunSet of 3/8/2007, after whole rainy day)


(It is a boring day...so i simply take this stupid pica....chiu)


(Do I Look Like A samurai?????Please Say YES...thank u)