Actually i had been struggling for a while for writing post in bloggie....i dunno if today is a gud time for me for posting sth up.....but people will disappointedly say...."No pics again......only text again"
well.....it was true i really made many people disappointed...especially my sister.....
I told lies to her.....well....i dunno if how other people will think of it....my reason for lying..people might say very ridiculous....it was bcos i dun wanna let them disappointed...even my parents or anybody....i really hesitated to tell the truth whenever that stuff will disappointed anybody.... I m just like a short-nose Pinocchio...luckily GOD did not put a curse on me...otherwise i will have the longest nose in the universe.....anyways....i had been telling countless lies to everybody, sometimes i can't realise which one is the truth, which one is the lie...... I just feel my life is a failure...I have to always aware of my lies in case they are being exposed to any person.......I live in a very cunning way...but the most shameless is...i can still act very normal to anybody.....
Sometimes i feel very happy when somebody says i m naive, i m still a kid....cos probably i m really immature yet.....I m just wasting my parent's money....letting them down even though my results are satisfied.......probably that was the only thing i can proud of it in front of my parents...
I don't really care if I m being took advantage....I guess that's a way to make myself not feeling guilty....especially in my workplace....i know i m being treated as a cheap labour...pushing down my wage bcos i m only 19....who cares.....many of the customers like me...i really tried my best to work on it....i never complain on anything.....i was really satisfied for getting my first work pay...but then....when I got my second workpay....i was deeply upset....my first workpay was 420AUD for 25 hours, but then it turned to be 700AUD for 60 hours...not only that....i have to pay 660AUD for my rent for the next month...
After that, my sister discovered my biggest lie onto her....$$ stuffs.....I just can't get rid of my biggest bad habit ---- splashing cash....splashing the money like a pinch of salt...
Anyways....i really feel i shuld get mature already.....
I think i should thank Hea Yun as well.....she knows my personality alot.... n she knows i wun suit her....it is still confusing between me n her....but few days ago....just when i came back on work....i chatted wif her on MSN....n then i realised sth..... i will just keep this as my secret....at least this secret is harmless to anybody.... Everybody needs secrets anyways.....even tho it is good or bad one...
Hea Yun....Thank you for motivating me last semester, it was a very precious memory to be teaching you....sitting beside you....knowing of you....I dunno if you really have a boy friend or not....I realised that I Love You, but I can also LIVE WITHOUT YOU
I really feel more comfortable after this post....GUD TIMING^^
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